Banquet for the Beast

[written by C.L. I remember when he gave me this poem. I was in a bad depression, very confused about what was happening. It was before I was diagnosed with anything, before the psychiatrists, the medications and the psych ward. When I was living in an emotional darkness, I had a friend that understood what I was going through. I've still got the original handwitten poem that he gave me about seven years ago.

C.L... my favourite line..."the wounds will be healed" I'm counting on it, brother. But you're right about one thing...the pain still remains...for now.


Depression
Encourages
Apathy
Towards
Holiness

...and the Lion prowls
He smells the fear and awaits the chance to devour
...and the Wolf howls
Though he is clothed in wool his teeth are just as sharp

He hungers for the blood
tearing though the flesh
dissecting his prey
the insides spilling out,
seeing the sun

...he knows...
...he knows...

There is no quarry here
the blood has already flowed
and he has lost his feast
his appetite for destruction wanes...

The pain, oh the pain
It remains
for now
But the wounds will be healed
And perservering...
Pressing onwards toward the goal
The joy will return again

copywrite 2000 C.L.

When tomorrow starts without me

(This poem was published in the Camrose Booster on Jan 2,2007. The poem was dedicated to Wes Howery who passed away on December 31, 2005. Written by Betty. I read it and imagined Paul reading the same words to me.)

When tomorrow starts without me and I'm not there to see
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me
I wish so much that you wouldn't cry the way you did today
While thinking of the many things we didn't get to say
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you
And each time you think of me, I know I'll miss you too
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand
That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand
And said my place was ready in heaven far above
And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love
But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye
For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die
I had so much to live for and so much yet to do
It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad
I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had
If I could relive yesterday, I thought, for just a while
I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile
But then I fully realized that this could never be
Or emptiness and memories would take the place of me
So when tomorrow starts without me don't think we're far apart
For everytime you think of me I'm right here in your heart